If you are part of my Creative Juices Arts community either by having painted with me in a class or on retreat or even just reading this blog, it’s a pretty good bet that creativity is high on your list of priorities.
But even when that’s the case, it can still be incredibly challenging to put our creative wishes and desires at the center of our lives and give them the time and energy that our heart is longing for.
And the reason for that is because we spend so much valuable time judging those desires. And in the process judging who we are.
We are constantly finding fault with what we want. We question what we like and doubt what we need. What don’t trust what would make us happy. And dismiss as not worthwhile what comes easily and effortlessly to us.
Forgetting that all those things are major clues about who we are intended to be in this life.
I had a woman come to me for a creative soul coaching session and she was the bemoaning the fact that she didn’t know who she was. And couldn’t even begin to figure out how to discover herself.
So I asked her what she liked.
And she said she liked making art. And she liked being outside in nature. And she liked learning about things. And when I asked her if she allowed herself to spend as much time as possible doing the things she liked, she said “Oh no. Of course not.” Because she didn’t think these things were important enough or valuable enough to build a life on.
She felt like she needed to prove how good she was, so did a lot of things that did not make her happy, like being on committees to further someone else’s agenda, or spending all of her time keeping her house neat and clean.
But once she surrendered to giving herself what she liked, the question about not knowing who she was became a non-issue. It wasn’t something she thought about anymore. She was just herself, following her natural impulses and desires.
So my wish for you in 2020 is that you stop searching for yourself.
Your soul is right there in front of you, wildly waving its arms trying to get your attention and flinging your brightly colored creative desires into a gorgeous heap of treasures at your feet. All you need to do is acknowledge that they are there and open your heart to claiming them.