The Call

When the call comes for more

For change

For freedom

For awakening

For stepping into who you were always meant to be

It doesn’t usually arrive as a sparkly party invitation

Often the call for liberation is more like a silent stalker

A sense of being followed by something dark and disquieting that simply won’t go away

A low level feeling of dread that crawls into bed with you at 3 AM

That sends your nervous system into spasm

And your mind into narrow spirals of incoherent panic

Its the visit from the unknown

That leaves you in a fog of confusion

Teetering off balance

And wandering aimlessly through seemingly outwardly purposeful days

A part of you knows that something has ended

That you’re going through the motions of a life that is no longer yours

That dread is really grief

A keening cry for the old days and the old you

The one that you know so well

The one whose scent and shape has housed all you have ever recognized as home

You love this one

You don’t want her to go

To die

To be no more

You cry out “Not now!

“Can’t we put this off for just a tiny bit longer?”

“It’s too soon”


But the pact has been made

The contract signed

The deal already done

Your soul has decided

It is time to move on

To step into a much larger world

A more authentic life

And left what was once so familiar lying on the floor like a translucent snake skin

Already shriveling in the heat and light of the brightly shining noonday sun.


  1. big ploppy tears Chris – you just looked into my soul and wrote a part of me here… how reassuring to know that this is a universal truth, a sanity and a gift…. thank you Chris and the Goddess <3

  2. holy smokes. yes yes yes. i have lived this shedding before, and imagine it will come again, as is the natural cycle of change. your words resonate so deeply. ♥
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  3. Beautifully said, Chris. A reflection of Truth recognizable by those who have also been visited. And I’m with Hali….I believe it comes more than once and I also believe, the first awakening is the most powerful.

  4. It’s funny how I came across your blog at a crossroads in my own life, stepping into something new and so authentic to me and stepping away slowly (very slowly) from the old. Thank you for these great words. It is a universal Truth and you said it so beautifully.

  5. This was so easy to read… as if you were there with me at my own 3am calling. :-)
    Thanks for sharing – and reminding me we’re never really alone. xoxo

  6. Wow, this was amazing and brought tears to my eyes. The Truth of it is so beautiful and right where I am in my life. I am so glad I signed up for your weekend workshop and was able to be there with you and the other incredible women who helped midwife me into this new chapter of my being. I feel something has shifted and changed on a deep level. Thank you~

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